With Many Ups Come The Inevitable Downs

So i have been having a few really good weeks, and have loved every minute of it! Until the fall occurred. Now i know that i could be blowing this whole thing out of proportion, however this is just how i feel. I have grown to like this guy, i mean what is not to like about him, he plays soccer, is catholic, and really seems like a sweet guy. Where do you see the problem right?!!? well i think he is still with his ex-girlfriend. I mean that is how it seems, and i know that as a girl guys do things that we may think is one thing, but when you get her a valentines day present, and then spend all day with her??? Makes a girl kind of wonder. Well this weekend i answered my phone at 3am, and im now regretting answering the phone at all. What the hell was i thinking?

Oh well here is to the new week, it cant get any worse right!

LIFE

I cannot be happier with my life right now!!! Everything is going so well, and I really would liek to attribute that to letting go and letting God. I swear it might be the hardest thing to do, and you will loose some friends along the way, but you also gain so much as a person that it is not even worth crying over the losses you encounter.

I would also like to say that WE DID HANG OUT!!! Brandy hanging out with you and the girls has become so much fun!!! and we have created so many memories thus far. I love going to Starbucks with you and studying.... watching tragedy happen wahahahha

Confirmation Retreat

We had a confirmation retreat this weekend for the kids in the area. Let me tell you i think ever yer i learn more about my faith going to these retreats then the kids do. At the confirmation retreat we have a session about letting go and letting God... and you hear about these kids struggles and you really think about your own life, and realize how trivial your problems seem. Yeah I have some problems but never could I imagine having some of the crosses these kids bear on a daily basis. Also at this retreat I let go of everything that i have been holding on to. I am sorry but I cannot care about your problems anymore. I love you, but i dont care about your petty drama. I need to close that chapter in my life with you. I am not going to pretend that you are mature or anywhere close to my age level. You are 20 and i realize that. I cannot live your life and I cannot tell you what to do. But I dont think that you are living the life that you want everyone to think you are. Your sister is never home and thats sad but you are a liar. And I really think that you lie because you are ashamed.

Top Gun

You might be at the edge of a feeling that simultaneously attracts you yet frightens you away. Something or someone has awakened your interest, but it's too soon to react openly. Your caution is well advised because your excitement could cause you to easily lose your objectivity. Take it slowly before jumping in.

Dear Rick, how do you know me so well?!?!